Dear ex boyfriend

See, I wish I never met you. An ironic thing to say to an ex huh? But since you left me..I’ve never been the same. I used to love meeting new people and building new friendships. I thought I was somewhat pretty..that my body was ok..but then I realise that all changed when I met you. Slowly but surely you chipped away at every part of self confidence I had. I would go to social gatherings/parties and you’d follow me..try get into the party..if you weren’t allowed you’d scream in my face that I was cheating on you and I’m a slag. So I stopped socialising, I only ever saw you. I wasn’t allowed to build new relationships with boys..I’d be seen as a slag..which you’d tell me over and over again. So I stopped having friends that are boys and cut out my girl friends. I thought that only you could love a ugly girl like me..because you would tell me every day that all the other boys only want me for what’s underneath my pants. I would look at boys in disgust who ever even smiled at me..because I honestly thought you were right. They just want sex. They don’t like my face..I’m not a pretty girl..you never ever called me pretty or complimented my looks. I compared my body to the porn videos you’d watch right in front of me, I would be giving you a blowjob and you’d be watching some other girl do it on a porn video. You told me sex was getting boring with me, that I didn’t please you enough anymore. Sex began to feel like a chore for me..it wasn’t a romantic moment we shared. It was just something I’d let you do to me because I felt like you’d love me more. Now, when you decided to dump me..I thought my whole world was crashing down. I thought so highly of you! However I took a step back and realised your not a good guy. You were out robbing shops, fighting and breaking people’s noses. You were selling drugs to get by and didn’t have a job..you bounced between your parents houses because they were getting sick of your behaviour. You weren’t the guy I fell in love with. And it took me a while ( 1 1/2 years) to realise you weren’t good for me. You were toxic! You broke down me as a person and now I’m so anxious of people. I don’t trust any man the same way I trusted you..I really do hope your new girlfriend sees what your like. But given the fact you got with her 1 month after our breakup I’d predict that she only has to learn the hard way.

dear ex,

your a piece of shit

xxx