Well, 2018 will be ending with yet another negative and another break in my heart😔

Started getting symptoms of AF last night and they’ve only worsened.

I tested Sunday morning BFN and tried to keep myself together all day and ended up having a big break down that night and then AF reared her ugly face this evening.

I guess I didn’t really realize just how badly I wanted this. I mean I’ve always wanted to be a mom and want nothing more than to have children with my SO and the last couple cycles that didn’t work out I was ok with, but this cycle; we tried so hard and did everything to a T.

But I guess it’s still just not our time and will need to keep trying.

I can’t express enough though, just how comforting and consoling my SO was while I broke down on him last night. I know he is always there and is upset about it too but just can’t explain how amazing he truly is.

We are going to enjoy the holidays and the rest of 2018 with our family and friends and begin 2019 with a fresh start and hope for 2019 to be our year.

I wish all you ladies much baby dust, a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.