Because I’m ugly😭

I really want a boyfriend but I’m ugly. I’m 17 and I’ve never had a boyfriend. Yep, never had my first kiss, never held hands with a guy, basically never done anything with the opposite sex. Why? Because I’m ugly. I don’t meet society’s description of beauty. I’m not thick, I’m not lightskin, I’m not beautiful. Instead I’m skinny, dark, I’m UGLY. I’ve only ever had one guy show me attention, and that’s because he didn’t know me, he only saw me online; with filters. I lust over the idea of having a boyfriend. I don’t need one but I want one 😭 everyone had they’re gloup during high school but I’m still ugly. I just don’t understand why the universe works against me😞 during high school I was the DUFF (designated ugly fat friend, except I was skinny to the point people called me anorexic)of my group. All my friends got the attention, and I was just in the background. No guy has ever liked me. In high school I got bullied. I got called every name in the book, not because I was mean, not because I was a bully but because I was UGLY. I got downgraded, I got rejected. Now my self esteem is low, I have been diagnosed with two mental illnesses. But I want to prove everyone wrong that, IM NOT UGLY, and they shouldn’t of bullied me.

Can you guys give me some words of wisdom and motivation to boss up and some tips to glo up in 2019❤️