I’m embarrassed 😅

I don’t know where to post this so I’m choosing here.

Those who have kids, did anyone end up with hemorrhoids during pregnancy and birth? I had some supeerrr minor ones during pregnancy from my son putting pressure on things but got HORRIBLE ones from pushing so hard during birth.

They’re life long and I’m just extremely embarrassed by them 😅 they randomly come back and it makes sex embarrassing for me. I don’t want my S/O to see them, or get grossed out or make me even more embarrassed (he makes jokes not realizing they can be mean )

I know if it came down to it he wouldn’t really care but I CARE. I don’t know how to get passed it and don’t want to really have sex or do any fun positions 😅

They just come and go based on diet and even clothing so it’s a guessing game.

Help.