Feeling like 💩 😭

Ok so this year has been really bad financially for me due to having a baby, becoming a full time student, and barely working. So obviously I can’t do much for Christmas but I managed to be able to buy my bf a gift card to one of his favorite stores and I told him I’d just like a gift card to Victoria Secret that’s it since he already does so much. He goes above and beyond for me and our sons and I wish i could give and do so much more to show appreciation but I just can’t right now. So I’m already feeling down because of that but i just looked under the tree and there’s 3 big packages for me from him 😭. I don’t even know how to explain how I feel of course I’m happy and grateful but at the same time I can’t help but to feel so bad because I just feel I’m doing enough. He deserves sooo much more than what my broke busy ass can give him and right now I just feel like 💩. Maybe I’ll feel better after typing all this out ☹️