Need all the positive support I can get...

Fed up...tonight it’s been enough. I’m tired of being called names and mistreated by my husband, every day of every year it’s the same. Im not good enough, I’m a bitch, I’m crazy... on and on. 7 years of holding on to him I’ve had enough. I’ve been living off of his income because he didn’t want me working but I don’t give a fuck anymore ide rather live in a card board box in a ditch than to deal with him any longer. I can’t do it...he has hurt me so bad.

We got into it today because the flower shop in my hometown called telling me they had a order of flowers to pick up, when I got there they wouldn’t tell me who they were from I assumed they were from my husband which was odd because he never does stuff like that...anyway later after he got home he saw the flowers and said it wasn’t him who sent them and continued to call me a cheater and a whore. I told him fuck you and went to pack some clothes and left...this is every day with everything. I’ve never cheated on him ever!!! Every time I threaten to leave in the past he said it was my loss because he was a great man and that he’s going to take all money from me including my debit card and my truck that’s in his name. Y’all I seriously don’t care anymore..I’ll live in a ditch with nothing before I continue this. I’m going to try and talk with a lawyer Wednesday after Christmas. We don’t have any kids but was currently fixing to go through ivf for a baby which I have canceled.

Please I need all the helpful advice and opinions I can get. Please help. Ty