Sometimes idk if I can get over it

Like can it actually get better? After being cheated on and lied to an entire relationship 9+ years and a 3 year old together. Every relationship before him was abusive in some way too. I just don't even know if i can even get over this. Every guy has always used and abused me in some way it's hard to be alone. I'm trying and it's happening for sure but i still like to be talkin to someone ya know like to get that attention\affection\connection whatever. Idk am I like destined to be alone now? Cause that's kinda what it feels like. I feel so violated. He knew everything about me and he wasn't even who i thought he was not one bit. He is a complete different person.