Umm....a rant???

So I'm 14 and my boyfriend is 15 truning 16 soon. I feel lile I'm REALLY fat ( well I am) but he tells me that I'm perfect and he doesn't care . But I feel like he does. I don't know. But I feel worthless a lot and he doesn't understand my gender identity (I'm not sure aboutit still) but I feel lile my masculine side shouldn't be controlled or hidden. But I really do like this guy! And he means a lot to me💕 But he plays the worlds most dumb jokes and hes Also a dick T-T .....he makes me so made and upset I don't know I have to rant

AND OH! He said he wants to marry me and umm other things I don't think others should now but he wants to marry me he said. And I'm supper scared of that and I dont want to tell him that I can't it's not Becuase of him at all! Hes a great guy and he need better than me. He says to me that I'm out of his league and I'm so much better then him and makes me feel so bad for him about that but he's most likely lying lol.

He also said he wants kids.......and tbh I love kids but havong my own??? Like thats a supper big readability and and they cost so much money. Yes I know I'm very young and I have time but I need to think of I really want him to be in my life for a time or just for a bit Becuase I want to see where this goes really.

Sorry if this took some ones times lol I just had to say some things that have been on my mind lately. And tell me your opinion like a tbh thing