I am 6 weeks pregnant and found out last week. We lost our baby boy earlier this year to a heart condition and have been extremely careful not to get pregnant since then but here we are. We discussed it and we are just not ready to go through all of this yet. We are still grieving our son’s death and having another baby comes with tons of testing and doctor appointments. I can barely step foot in the hospital without having a panic attack. So next week I will be getting a surgical abortion. This isn’t easy at all but I know it’s what we need to do. I just needed to tell someone as we are keeping this private.

I wanted to edit to add that my son also had a chromosomal syndrome that I carry. My children have a 50% chance of having major health issues. I will need a CVS done at 10 weeks of each pregnancy to test for this syndrome. My son died at almost 5 months old and I have a healthy 7 year old. I would reply to individual comments here but unfortunately I can’t reply anonymously.