Really upset

About to leave for Florida in a few days for vacation and my body is absolutely gross.

I just want to cancel my trip because I don’t deserve it. I don’t even want to eat I just flat out hate myself.

I went on birth control last year and I gained weight and everyone I work with plus my clients and even family noticed.

My hair texture changed from thick and wavy to thin and stick straight almost flat.

I don’t feel like myself and I’m really suffering. I don’t know what to do.