i am SO embarrassed 🤧😭

EDIT: because there’s also confusion in the other boards where i posted this, i’ve had sex with the three guys at ALL DIFFERENT TIMES, never in the same day. and i always always use protection!!

okay so i had sex for the third time today. so i’m pretty new at all of this. no judgment but i’ve done it these 3 times with 3 different guys. i bled a little bit the first two times but not too too bad, and we only did it for a little bit. but that’s normal right? well the third guy that i did it with has a pretty big penis, way larger than the others. but i didn’t think too much of it. well that was until he put it in and it was almost as painful at the first time that ive ever done it. but i got through it and boy was i having a blaaassttttt. but as he was telling me to turn around we both realize something, i was BLEEDING like crazy. we grabbed a light and there was SOOOOOO much blood everywhere and i feel so embarrassed. it looks like a god damned murder scene in the back of his car. it was on me, and him. i wanted to cry then and there. he was making jokes about it and being pretty cool but i feel so bad and so embarrassed. i don’t even know if this is normal. i’m freaking out here lol