I don’t know what to do

My boyfriend is so passive aggressive and it is taking a toll on me mentally and emotionally. Some days I feel like we are on the same page and other day I feel like he is somewhere else and it’s my enemy. There’s doesn’t seems to be any consistency and emotionally I am spent. I have been wanting kids for years but have Endometriosis working against me. I can’t afford to pay for IVF or IUI and it’s aiding my depression and anxiety. I am not sure what to do. I can’t talk to my family because they say shit like “be glad you don’t have kids. Travel and do what you want to do”. Well, I want to be a Mom and it seems like everything is working against me right now and I would just rather not be here if I am going to be tortured for the rest of my life 😭😭😭