I'll be 34weeks tomorrow. So only 6 to go. Its been such an incredible journey for me. Yes i had my ups and downs but overall everything was great.

Pregnancy went smoothly. Nausea in first trimester but nothing to worry about greay but lazy second trimester. And now aches and pain but i feel so blessed to have madi it this far.

Im not working, they stopped me at 12 weeks. I didn't have much trouble staying home by myself.

I only spent time with my boyfriend and some times with my bestfriend ( dont have much friend). Everything was ok for me.

A month ago, my boyfriend got a new job. And he is now working night shift (12 hours shift 3 to 4 nights a week)

So whenever he's at home, he sleep. And i've finding it really hard lately.

Im short and fat so its getting harder for me to bend or reach for something, sometimes i even need help to get out of the couch.

So with him working nights and sleeping all day i dont do much around the house. Not being able to do stuff makes me sad. Not being with him makes me sad. We have a date night plan for friday and i just wish i wont be too tired to go. Feeling so lonely and a bit paranoid with the due date coming soo fast. I know he will be home with me for 5 weeks when our son will be born and i can't wait. But still can't shake that lonely feeling away.

Sorry for the long post. Ftm with no one to talk to.