Feeling some type of way.

My husband and I decided a month ago to start ttc. On Christmas eve we got two positives on FRER (faint but definitely positive). I felt like the lines were getting lighter and I was going crazy. So I decided to stop testing until AF was due. Day before AF was due I tested again and there was no line. I started bleeding that same day.

My cousins were having a New Years party and I was already thinking about the excuses I was going to give as to why I wasn’t drinking. Anyway, I’m at the party and I just found out my little cousin is pregnant. I’m happy for her but it makes me feel some type of way. Like i really am happy for her but I can’t stop thinking that it was going to be me breaking the news.

Anyhow, I’m a big believer and I know that if it wasn’t my month then there’s a reason why. I believe His timing is perfect and when my time comes it will be perfect and awesome.

Baby dust to all of you in this 2019! And guys I’m going to be an aunt again!!!