Terrified of birth.

I’ve gave birth twice. My daughter was induced and I had an epidural but legit a terrible birth.... I tore and had to get 6 stitches. AH makes me hurt thinking of it 😫 and then my son all natural was too late for epidural and he got stuck for 30 minutes and it was long and painful. I do not wanna go through it... it scares me 😭😭