Have you mourned a miscarriage..?

In December 2017 I had a miscarriage on New Year’s <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">Eve</a>. I was only about 6 weeks, but it was my first baby and I became so excited. I found out I was pregnant again in May of 2018 (only a few months later..). I’m now 37 weeks pregnant about to give birth but it still upsets me that I had that happen. I felt pain in September when I would’ve been due, and this last week just thinking about it all happen. Have you mourned a mc being pregnant or with other children? Do you feel guilty, selfish, or are you more understanding of your emotions? Just could use some positive thoughts from mamas who have possibly been in the same place before.