So nervous

And the thing is I’m not sure how far along I would be because I’m irregular AND I have PCOS! My last period was 11/18-11/23! I took a pregnancy test on 12/17 it was negative then I took another 12/31 and that was also negative. So I’m so shocked! It’s crazy also because the day I planned to start my birth control (today) I decided to take a test first just in case and now I’m pregnant. The only thing I worry about is that I miscarry again because I’m having mild cramps. Also my husband is deploying April for 6 months. I don’t want to go through my whole pregnancy with out him 💔