Pregnancy

So about 2-3 years ago I was in a really abusive relationship and before I found out he was cheating on me we got pregnant but it ended in a miscarriage. Literally right after my miscarriage a month later I found I was pregnant again. At that point I found out he was cheating on me so I decided to end things with him and I didn’t want anything to do with him so I ended the pregnancy as well. He told me not to and I told him ok but you need to start being faithful to me. And he told me he wasn’t going too because he wanted me and her . So I went on and go the abortion. And he told me to go to hell and that whenever I really wanted a baby I won’t be able too. Well I’m married and we’re TTC and I can’t get pregnant. It’s only been a couple of months but either way I get pregnant quickly and it’s been 3 months and nothing. I’ve been calculating everything.