I’m holding onto hope but idk what I’ll do if I see another negative. I’ll be lying if I said I’ll give up because every time i feel like I’m going to give up my husband becomes my strength and I end up gearing up for the next month. I’m very bless to have three boys already but after my fourth son being still born I never had a urge to have a baby then i do now. My two older boys are from a previous relationship and my youngest from my husband. My son, Aris, who was still born was suppose to be our last baby. I want so badly to give my youngest son a sibling and my husband a second child. I mean he treats all the kids like his. After all he’s been there dad for 8 years and my oldest is 10. It just lately their bio dad has showed up and when they leave to visit him the home doesn’t feel whole and my youngest is left alone. We would love to give him a sibling so when his older brothers are gone he has someone to play with or grow up relating with. He’s always asking why his brothers has two dads and how come he can’t go with them and even tho we explain why, he doesn’t get it just yet. Hoping January is the month for are BFP. January would’ve been the month Aris is born. We miss him dearly.