Hello,

So I have been very conflicted about this problem lately. I'm almost 16 and I have never had a romantic interest in relationship with a boy or anything. I'm not bisexual or anything, I'm straight, but I haven't felt the need or loneliness to go seek for a guy. I focus frantically on my studies, family and God.

Maybe that's why no guy has laid eyes on me or ever complimented me. I'm always shy or that girl who keeps to herself. Sitting alone is my way of saying come chat or an invitation to get to know me better. My therapist has said that's not how people are going to see it as. I feel different like I'm not a teen since I'm not boy crazy or indulging in parties or hanging with friends.

I know a lot of people can't relate to this. Am I mature or immature feeling this way? Like I'm not everybody else?

I used to love embracing that when I was younger-- my quirks and odd personality. I still do sometimes.

I'm used to blending in to an array of hues and color pallets. Does that make me less desireful though? Less likeable? I don't like purposefully giving myself attention over nothing, but somedays I wish I could stick out to someone and they'd get it. Or i'd get it-- a connection.

Wondering if this can be solved or even understood.