Advice please??

I need advice

I want to do a home birth with a midwife at my place in a small kiddy pool but also reallt scared and nervous about it especially my fiancee since he was born blue and not breathing at first but i had no birth defects but he has and my dad had a sizuire when he was born so need advice ??? So confusijg and nervous if i still should do the home birth even though theres these risks with no doctor around than could help if something major happens.