Recently my brother and sister nlaw with their 4 kids moved in with us. They just had a boy, hes 6 mths old now. My sister also just had her third, a baby girl who is 5 mths old. Both my brother and sister and now sister nlaw are on drugs. Makes me sick.

Meanwhile, me and my other sister are clean, hard working, never been on drugs...cant seem to get pregnant or hold a pregnancy longer than 4 wks. Neither of us have kids (unless you count our furbabies) and have been trying for 3+ yrs.

Doesnt seem right. Im a monster because while i love the lil ones...i had no excitement for them...their parents were irresponsible and neither have the means or mental state to be having another child.