Is it worth it?

Hi ladies,

I have been in a relationship with my boyfriend for almost 2 years. Him and I have been through so much together from not having a home and jumping couches to getting our first apartment together so it’s safe to say that we both have relied on each other a lot these 2 years. Whether that be financial help, emotional help, and physical help we have been there for each other. The problem is, in my eyes, is that this man has no drive. He’s 22 years old and i have been struggling so hard to get him to work. For the past year I have been paying for pretty much everything. Don’t get me wrong he would work for a couple months but never a full week so his checks were always short. For whatever he lacked in I picked up the slack thinking that if I ever needed his help, I could rely on him to do the same. It’s been a whole year and nothing has changed. Like I said he’ll work for months but it will never be a full week and eventually him missing one day a week goes to two days a week and eventually he stops going and gets fired. At one point he was out of work for over s month and he didn’t get up and apply for jobs until I was screaming crying that I needed his help. He’s a great man overall. He helps me around the house sometimes, and makes me laugh. But is it worth it? Should I have to be on the verge of a breakdown for him to get up and help me out with bills? I hate to be someone who leaves a man because he doesn’t make any money, but I’m the complete opposite of him. I have dreams and goals and would love to eventually own a home and start a family, but I’m scared that if I have trouble getting him to work now it’s a problem I’m going to have the rest of my life. He’s super controlling/jealous so I don’t have friends that I can really talk to which is why I’m posting it here. I guess what I’m trying to ask is should I be a ride or die and stick it out for him and have faith that eventually he’ll step up to his responsibilities? Or am I wasting my time on someone who is holding me back from being the best me? I’ve spoken to him about this and he promises to get up and work everyday but everyday he questions going to work and it just angers me. To the point where I don’t want to have sex with him and he annoys me and I’m not sure. I’ve given him multiple chances to prove it to me that he wants to work and wants a better future for us, but I’m scared the anger and stress that he’s caused me from having to handle our bills all by myself for a year has killed the love that I once had for him. Someone please just let me know if people change..