😴☹️😩🥰 mixed emotions.

I am currently 39w3d. My last appointment 5 days ago I wasn’t dilated, my cervix was still high, & I wasn’t effaced. I’m exhausted. My lower back & hips hurt (I’ve had sciatica since about 25 weeks). I have been walking through my pregnancy, and just started walking even more when I was 37 weeks (2miles - 2 1/2 miles per day) I have been doing squats, having sex, using my birthing ball as much as possible. I have not had any Braxton Hicks or even any signs of labor. I’m so over being pregnant and I feel so selfish for saying that. 😭😭