Breakdown

Taking today to cry all I want about being pregnant. Been out of work for 6weeks which means that my SO is like the only interaction with adults I have had since “friends/family” have not been super involved except when baby comes. Been at 1cm, 75% effaced with baby at -1/0 position for weeks. False labor those whole 6weeks, contractions every 5-10min for the past week. I am trying my best to make it to induction at 40+3 but today those 5days seems like a lifetime and hearing its normal to go past due date makes no difference. So so mentally exhausted and I will cry today and pick myself back up tomorrow to clean house and be an adult.