Let me start off by saying I’m incredibly blessed that I can carry a child and my body has and continues to amaze me every single day. I’m forever grateful for this pregnancy.

HOWEVER.

I’ve never felt pain like this in my life! Ever since around 24 weeks, I’ve been in so much pain. I was diagnosed with SPD, and that makes any sort of physical activity a chore. At 26 weeks I was diagnosed with GD, and at 29 weeks I was told my baby was roughly 5lbs, head down low on my cervix and already in position for a vaginal delivery.

As each day passes, I feel like my body is going to give up. I can hardly walk because of the pressure and pain combination. At 32 weeks, I feel like a failure because I can’t do any sort of task without having to sit down and cry it out until the pain becomes manageable again.

This morning I attempted the grocery store. I didn’t need much so the trip was light. However, about halfway into my shop, I had to find a place to sit because I was experiencing painful BH contractions and it felt like my vagina was going to fall off. I didn’t get half of my list because I just couldnt handle the pain any longer.

Don’t even get me started on household tasks. I’ve managed to wash the majority of baby’s clothes and blankets, but there’s still so much that needs to be set up/washed/bought before his arrival. My husband helps with day to day tasks like sweeping and helping with laundry but I still feel like I’m not doing enough. My husband works his ass off all day while I can hardly finish a load of laundry and I feel like I’m failing him. He’s been amazing, but I just feel bad for not being able to do literally anything.

It’s probably all just hormones but my god 😭

I just can’t wait to meet this little guy that’s causing all this ruckus in my body. Anyone else with me? Any tips on how to calm down? 😂