My homophobic parents

Ok so I am bi but I am deeply closeted because my dad is extremely (and my mom is slightly) homophobic and it’s just not safe for me. I have a secret girlfriend and we have been dating for almost half a year and we are happy but my parents keep asking why I havnt had a boyfriend and when is one coming and I shouldn’t rush it, as if they think that I want one that I can’t get and that I am upset about it

And I just hate having to listen to them talk about boyfriends and husbands and all sorts of stuff that I don’t want for myself, and I am only 15, so I have 3 more years before I can even think of moving out and living on my own

I just hate it, I want to live my life and love whomever I want and I don’t want to have that fear and sadness of the idea that my parents will never come to my wedding

Hearing them chant homophobic slurs

I just want it to end so badly and I can’t make it stop

I am sorry this is a rant but nobody knows about my sextuality and I just feel like this is the closest thing I will ever get to having someone talk this out with me