Thought I this was my month

I thought genuinely that this was the month that I wouldn't get my period that I pregnant again but I've just woke up to find that I have got my period. I feel defeated. We lost our baby back on August 7th at 9weeks 4days pregnant and have been trying since end of October to get pregnant again. We have a two year old daughter but are desperately wanting another baby. I just thought this was our month that finally I'd get two little lines on that test 😔😔😔