Small rant

I feel like everyone around me is pregnant or just had a baby. I feel like I'm in a nightmare. I finally got my first period 9 weeks after my miscarriage yesterday and the cramping is horrendous and I just want to cry alone in my room all day. I feel so bitter and disconnected from everyone. I am supposed to be 19 weeks but instead I'm bleeding and in pain. We are waiting until July to start trying again. Its going to be the longest 5 months of my life 😭