breastfeeding anxiety

I'm 35 weeks, and am having some anxiety about breastfeeding.

I've never enjoyed my breasts. they've been rather large my whole life. I remember in adolescence and teen years, men (young and old) would stare and make comments about them...

ive always wanted to hide them and make them smaller...

now, being a ftm, im having to prepare myself for breastfeeding. although its vital for baby, I am still having trouble getting over my anxiety about breastfeeding. I fully intend to try it... but I cant help but shake this cloud of junk about it..

what did you do to prepare for breastfeeding? I know I'll make enough, figure out the latch, it'll take time, etc. but getting over this initial dread for it is proving to be difficult..

I'll search more online while I wait for you ladies to respond.

and yes, i know formula is an option. thank you.