Anyone else?? 😩

I am so exhausted of BFN and wish this whole TTC process didn’t seem so long and exhausting... I wish I could just take a test, see that BFP and run to my partner to show him with glee the test! But I can’t and I feel like even though I’ve monitored my ovulation closely this month, it still isn’t the time. I’m not due on quite yet but I just have this feeling... I’m not excited I’m already sad about that BFN and I have no more hope left! 🥺 is it just me? Am I being dramatic? I hope someone can relate because I’m tired of being heartbroken every time I take a test 😭