Too nervous to check

I'm sitting on the floor of my bathroom. My husband is in the other room oblivious (I'd prefer him that way). I'm 10 days away from my next period (?). I want to open the new pack of ClearBlue but I'm so scared of the BFN. I have no reason to be afraid but I just can't help feeling worried. "I only have 4 tests, I should just wait until I'm more sure". "Just wait 10 more days". "Why are you so anxious to find out early, no two people are the same. Just because other women had positives shortly after their DPOs doesn't mean you will"...........