I am a fu** up

So I got the balls to say something to my ex-wife about the polygamy Sister Wives thing well what she brought it up to her new fiance didn't go over so good almost lost her out of my life completely and it doesn't help that my niece ran her mouth about something she doesn't even know about and telling them that she does right now with some things this is the only place I can vent because I can post anonymously and because of those two things and she supposedly now can't get off work for the weekend they're not coming down from Jersey this weekend which just messes up everything I had planned for us to do I just hurts because I didn't want to discuss the Sister Wives thing she drugged it out of me when I wasn't in the right State of Mind I honestly still love my ex-wife and know that my divorce was the wrong way for us to go but it's over it's done she's got a new girl and there's nothing I can do but stand back and wait for that relationship to fail because she has told me that if something happens between the two of them she would be get willing to give us another try I'm just venting any thoughts just comment you guys are great listeners and come back with some good ideas and thoughts