venting..

I’m so upset. After two miscarriages last year, I really thought I’d get my positive this month. Of course my period decides to come three days early, and then I find out a former coworker who is 42 years old is pregnant and due next month. I’m a little jealous, she wasn’t even trying. I know I should be happy for her and I am, I’m just sad for myself. I think I’m going to take my husband’s advice and just give up, if i’m meant to get pregnant and have a child, I will, if not I won’t. I can’t keep going through this heartbreak every month.