I am in such a bad spot and I just feel like im spiraling downhill and like nothing is worth it anymore.

I have no connectionwith my therapist anymore and no other therapist are accepting new clients currently

I’m in my last year of high school that was switched to having teachers come to my house because I have such bad social anxiety I can’t leave my house and go to school anymore and I’m failing all my classes canceling all the time and just I feel like I should just drop out and give up.

My dad was just in the hospital and basically almost died because of a doctor and now he’s a diabetic.

I feel like I just can’t grasp anything anymore . I feel like I’m living life in the shadows that’s not even living it.

I’m almost 18 , I never have paid for anything in my life like handing a cashier money because I’m to scared, I don’t have my license yet, I don’t have a job because of my social phobia, and I barely have friends. I have my one bestfriend who lives far from me and my boyfriend who has his own probelms and I feel like i am a inconvenience to him ( i know I’m not he really makes me happy and makes me remember why it’s worth it but ugh it’s just so hard sometimes )

I feel like I just need AIR And a good BREAK from life but that’s impossible