All I could do was cry 😭

Beyond hurt at the thought I will not be having another child. My husband and I both have 14y/o from previous relationships. We’ve been married 6yrs and we decided this would be our last month trying. He didn’t want to go beyond the the age of 38. Him May, me November. I’m so hurt that I’m at a lost for words. Today would have been 3 days late. I’ve been scared to test so I didn’t but I now don’t have to Af showed this afternoon. He just walked in from work and it was almost like he knew. No words, he held me and said nothing. All I could do was cry 😭