Birthdays

So today is my boyfriends birthday.🎂 as much as I would love to celebrate him and show him a nice day I don’t want to .. I don’t want to because for the past 3 birthdays of mine he hasn’t gifted me ( which is not that important) , always starts a argument and makes me feel horrible ON MY BIRTHDAY..meanwhile for his birthday I’ve bout cakes and gifts and made it enjoyable when nobody else cared ..so am I wrong for stopping myself from celebrating his birthday? Just to kind of let him see how it feels ??