*TW** I had an abortion

It happened over a year ago. We already had a little baby and we were renting his aunt’s basement and couldn’t afford to have another one. I don’t regret it. I know it was the right decision for our family. But I do feel guilty. I try to make myself feel better by saying it was just a ball of cells and not even a baby yet but then I remember we found out about our daughter around that many weeks and were already so excited about our “baby”..I feel bad for picking and choosing and I’m gonna feel bad for the next time we try to have another baby when we could’ve had one before. My heart sinks whenever I think about if it felt pain or what it looked like in utero. It doesn’t help seeing these anti-abortion posts all over the internet saying that women who get abortions are murderers. I know we’re not bad people for doing what we thought was right for us..but I feel bad and I don’t know how to make peace with it.