The honest truth

Honestly Ive been infertile for a long time but it just hasnt been "technically " the perfect time. I first kinda felt like I couldnt have kids probably when I was 13. I had a bf for was older than me and after we broke up I remember finding out he was having a baby with his then gf. Around that time I really was not trying until I fell in love(puppy love) with this guy and swore we weren't ment to be. Unprotected sex majority of the time but nothing. By this time I was 16 and had got my first sti Chalmydia and it was painful but I was treated for it. After that relationships ended (2 years off and on) and I met my ex at 17. We were together for almost 6 years and this is when i started actually trying with opks, and tracking and all that. The first 3 years of that relationship was hard because i tried so hard for so long while everyone around me was getting pregnant so easy. My ex was much older and he had a daughter, she ended up having 3 pregnancy before me and she was only a couple years younger than me. We tested his sperm and it was fine, I went to 1 appointment for fertility and after it I was sad about the cost and insurance and on top of that I was being told by ppl if it's the right time , maybe you should be as little more stable. I swear I did all the step right. I was married, had a career bought a house but no baby (something I've always wanted). That relationship ended almost 3 years ago and I'm in a new relationship, financially I could be doing better but I feel like it will NEVER happen for me. Even if I was promiscuous in high school I never got pregnant like my peers (a good thing then but now I feel left out and incomplete). I'm 26 now and I know that may seem young and that I have a lot of years left but honestly if it hasnt happened yet , I give up.