I need some support

So I was diagnosed with a miscarriage on 1/15 (bleeding and no sac on ultrasound) had my HCGs monitored until it was negative. Instead they keep going up. A second ultrasound sound showed an early gestational sac. My OB warned me that it’s most likely non viable. I have an appointment with MFM on 2/11 and if it shows a non viable I have a D&E on 2/13. My problem is this two week wait is killing me. I feel like poop too. Im exhausted, nauseated, my boobs hurt and I’m emotional. I know I only have another 5 days to wait, I’m just starting to loose my mind 😢

Update: On 2/11 there was no heartbeat. I had a D&E on 2/13. Ultrasound was suspicious for a molar. I’m waiting on pathology. I have been counting my blessings this week for a wonderful husband and my healthy sons. I pray I get another chance to have a baby. I just don’t feel done yet and know I have a little angle in heaven waiting for me to Love. Thank you all for the support xo