QUESTION FOR ORPHANS OR CHILDREN OF P.O.S PARENTS

This question if for all the women who grew up in orphanages or with piece of 💩 parent's like i do... Do you guys ever wish you could experience what it feels like to say i love you to your parents and hear it be said back or wish that you had a bond that some people here on this app do with their parents? (you can answer yes or no or once in a while on the poll) I know that once in a while i do even though im 25 now. Anyway if you do at times what keeps you from breaking down in those instances? (i mean crying not completely falling apart... Lol).... Thanx