Overly Sheltered? Cause I’m actually going insane.. maybe it’s just me.. idk..

Hola. So to begin, I’m 17. I’m aware I’m not an adult and until I am, what my parents say, goes. But just tell me if this sounds ridiculous... or if I’m just crazy. But i actually feel like losing my mind right about now! 😁👍🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼

I respect them and what they stand for (most of the time) I’m not the typical teenager who hates her parents and thinks they’re totally against her. However, my parents have been slightly crazy lately. Again please tell me if I’m in the wrong.

Recently, I left my old school. My closest friends have always been much older than me. They’ve been 18+ and I enjoy it because kids my age or younger (not all but most) are so freaking immature and it drives me crazy. They live for drama and petty behavior and it’s so stressful. My mom doesn’t think I need to be spending my time with older people but they are the only friends I have. And again kids my age are so annoying it seems. She won’t let me go over to my friends house because she doesn’t share the same beliefs as my parents! Like, what? And she talked shit about my friend JUST because she admitted I was sheltered and because she has had sex.. like are you kidding?

My mom is a pretty strict, religious person. Both of my parents trust me but then they don’t trust the people I’ve made friends with. But they said, TO MY FACE, that they trust the friends I make and they love the few I have.. or used to have. AND they are all older too. It’s like they’re double minded. One minute it’s okay and the next, I cant even go to hangout at someone’s house. Or she hounds me about “why would you wanna be friends with THIS girl..” cause she’s nice!!! She’s a good person and she’s the ONLY girl who has actually been solid these past 3 months. I can’t go anywhere anymore. And if im watching a movie it’s like “oh what movie? It better not be rated R..” or “you can’t go outdoor climbing with ONLY boys. You have to have a girl go with you.” DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY GIRLS GO OUTDOOR BOULDERING? NONE.

Not near me anyways.. i cant go anywhere unless it’s SUPER public or another girl that they know and have met in person is going. I can’t even stay the night at a friends place unless they know the girl well and her parents... it’s so restricting and because of it, I’m missing out on so many fun trips, fun nights. I’ve never been to a public school besides a couple short years in elementary, I cant go to dances, I can’t even go to a damn game night some of my best climbing buddies are having. I’ve never been one to be like “poor me” and victimize myself, but I really am beginning to feel deprived of freedom and having some fun. They know im not gonna make stupid decisions but still feel the need to enforce all of these rules. I didn’t even get my first phone until I was 15.. and I got my first smartphone when I was 16... I’m so sick of being cooped up. My goals are big and i cant get better at rock climbing if I ONLY climb in the gym. And they’re the ones saying they can’t wait to see me go pro. Except they’re holding me back from really progressing.

I don’t know what to do anymore. If I should just stop being the good daughter and rebel and just sneak out and actually LIVE or if I should miss out on all these amazing climbing trips and opportunities and wait 10 more freaking months until I’m 18... and by then, climbing outdoors will be out of season and I’m scared people won’t want to invite me anymore. Because I JUST started getting invited to these cool trips and I was always ignored a lot in my old school. It’s just exciting to think people ACTUALLY want me with them. And if I keep saying no, because my parents won’t let me, what if they give up and stop inviting me because it’s “most likely gonna be a no anyways.”... UGH I’m just really tired of not being able to do shit. Soooooo tired..

Any advice?