Found out in December that my husband & I are expecting again. It took months to convince him to start trying again because it would be our third child but we both long for a little girl. So he agreed we would try one more time. We have 2 boys. The oldest is about to be 4 in April & my youngest turned 1 this past September. I knew, while still in the hospital with my second son, I wasn’t done having babies. I think my husband wanted to be done after my second so we could get back to us but I had a feeling that later down the road he would probably want to try again. I, on the other hand, felt that while we are already in the is toddler/baby stage, if we wanted more children we should go ahead & have them. So now I am pregnant again with baby #3! This pregnancy has been rough. I am constantly nauseous & exhausted. My skin is so dry, it’s like I’m getting over a sunburn. My hair is dry & brittle unlike this luxurious locks I had with the last 2 pregnancies. Pregnancy with my boys was a breeze compared to this one. Since I found out I was pregnant, I tried to convince myself that it was another boy. I didn’t want to get my hopes up that maybe, just maybe it would be our girl. I started to feel at peace that this would be our last baby because deep down, I thought that this would be our girl. Last week we went to an elective ultrasound at 14 weeks in hopes to find out the gender. We didn’t look & they put it in a envelope for us. We threw a gender reveal with all of our close family & friends to find out with us. That whole day preparing for the party, my husband said, “I really think it’s a girl this time.” I started having mixed feelings. I really didn’t want to get my hopes up but after he admitted his feelings, I couldn’t help it. Everyone was on the girl team. Time to reveal. We pop the balloon & it’s BLUE! Another boy. I tried my best to be happy & to play it off. After we clean up & everyone has left, I’m still in shock that it’s another boy & I can’t shake this feeling. I’m conflicted. I wanted to be done but I dream of having a daughter. I try talk to my husband & he says, “well it’s another boy & that’s it. No more.” We haven’t talked much about it since. I have cried over it. I started looking up women who were told that they were having a boy & found out later they were having a girl. Read countless stories in hopes we would become one too. For days I have been struggling. I’m not sure if I’m disappointed because I truly felt that it was a girl this time or the fact that my husband is done. He claims he will get a vasectomy if I do not get my tubes tied. I have already stressed to him that I do not want to do that because it’s permanent. Knowing him though, if he goes through with a vasectomy, there will be no convincing him for a reversal. I’m unsure what to do. How to cope or deal with this feeling. I’m not even half way through this pregnancy & Im trying to decide maybe we should try one more time or just accept that we will have 3 boys & no more. This baby boy will be loved more than anything like his brothers. There is no doubt about that but right now, I can’t shake this feeling. I need advice or words of encouragement because sadly this is one of those times where my husband is saying all the wrong things.