I’m scared!!!

So I have been late for 12 days now... and I been getting cramping, craving, sleepless nights.. but no spotting or anything. I took a test and it was negative.. now I’m like sick, with the flue 😿 I been trying for 9 months now to have a baby and no luck.. I really don’t now what to do, what video to watch or want to read other then the doctor.. it been pretty embarrassing going and they just tell you no your not just like that..