This month is to hard

I had a miscarriage late October, early November and my period has been all over the place since i finally got a normal period in January then this month im 5 days late yet still bfn. So i call my obgyn and they want me to come in for a blood test and to put me on birth control for 3 months. I know its gonna help my cycles get back in control but im do tired of waiting its not fair and i feel like i have no one to talk to. All the women around me are pregnant or have babies and its pulling at me. Im also goin through so personal stuff and my birthday is this month. I was hoping for the greatest birthday gift ever but im pretty sure im not gonna get what i really want this year.... so if anyone needs to talk im here cause i know what your going thriu