BFN brat

I am fucking pissed at all of these negative tests. We lost our baby at 18 weeks and all of me is like, I should still be pregnant. I was supposed to have a baby soon. Yeah yeah, I’m not entitled to having a baby. I’m not entitled to be pregnant. But what the fuck was the point of getting pregnant and being pregnant for half of a full fucking term pregnancy if I wasn’t and am not supposed to be pregnant? I am going to stab the next person who says “it’s all in God’s plan” or “you’re still young” or “it’ll happen when your body is ready” in the fucking eyeball. Fuck these negative ass tests. Fuck these indent lines, fuck these evap lines, fuck being so hopeful and so desperate that squinting at a million pee sticks is now completely normal.