My little bubs

Sorry for the long post but thank you for reading 💕

I’ve been feeling like a bad momma to be lately because I am not showing as much excitement for this baby as everyone thinks I should. I’ve had two previous miscarriages and I guess I am just trying to be cautious this time around. With the two other pregnancies I was ecstatic, telling everyone about baby and going crazy over nursery ideas. After the two miscarriages I became really depressed and I saw the toll it took on my husband and I and I don’t want that to happen again. Don’t get me wrong I am happy for this pregnancy, I cry happy tears every time I see baby and hear baby’s heartbeat but when family starts talking about gifting us baby items I dismiss it. I guess I don’t want to get ahead of ourselves just in case things do go wrong. I know I shouldn’t think like this and I should be positive but it’s just hard to think that this little baby can be taken away from us as well.

I haven’t really spoken this out loud to anyone but I can tell by the looks they give me that they think I’m not truly excited about baby.

Anyway I had an appointment yesterday and I got to see my little bubs wiggling away and I just cried the entire ultrasound and the entire way home 💕