In my 2 week wait

Ok... AF is due to arrive in 7 day my fiance, my first luv, and my beast friend really wants a bby and i want to make him happy and give him the world.... I know he luvs me and MY 4 KIDS because he tells us 150× a day & how we are his gift from GOD ( he has no biological children of his own ) and he is a GREAT MAN.... BUT i dont know if my body can handle another pregnancy all of my kids came early, i get VERY SICK! Im in and out of the hospital throughout my pregnancy and with my last daughter i had high blood pressure, I had a seizures and almost died and my daughter was born with Adams Oliver syndrome Im truly scared to have another baby but I think I may be pregnant. Im in my two week wait well one week now.. I woke up not feeling so hot... Lower abdomen feeling heavy... I heard that sometimes when and woman wants to have a baby so bad their body and minds plays tricks on them but i dont know if i want anymore kids or if my body can carry another baby... Please wait with me ladies and lets see