Embarrassed but I need help. TW

Hey ladies.

So, I have been going through a really bad time ever since I had my last child two years ago and I really need some encouragement.

I have been having periods that last for months at a time, my body has become foreign to me in every way. Tomorrow is my first doctors appointment and I’m really anxious because I was sexually abused during my hospital stay after I gave birth and I haven’t been able to see a physician besides my therapist since.

I’m terrified but I’m trying my hardest to go, and it just hasn’t happened. I really want tomorrow to be the day I change things for myself. Please no hate.

If anyone can offer words of advice or comfort I would appreciate it more than you know.