so recently ive been feeling more depressed than usual and ive been contemplating suicide but heres the thing,, idk if my mind is being serious about it?? like my mind can be very confusing so i thought that maybe im just contemplating suicide because im on my period and bc my mind is bored? idrk whats going on in my mind right now but i cannot tell if im seriously contemplating suicide or not. i feel like i might need to go to the hospital but if this isnt serious i wouldnt want to waste doctors time and stuff. please help what should i do??!?